Why Dating Feels So Hard

Why is dating so hard?

Why does it sometimes feel even harder when you think you might have found someone—but you aren’t sure?

Why does everyone at this age come with so much baggage—myself included?
No shade, just the truth.

I’m absolutely devastated that he canceled dinner tonight.
I feel this intense urge to talk it out, but I know he’s sick.
He really isn’t up for it.
And I know that.

So why do I still have so many feelings about this?

I want to jump in.
Take my hand and jump.

Whether it works out or it doesn’t—
It doesn’t matter either way.

And I’m not talking about moving in together or losing ourselves.
I’m not talking about marriage proposals or life-altering decisions.

I’m talking about:

💛 Seeing each other more often
💛 Spending the night together
💛 Saying the words
💛 Making the effort
💛 Not being afraid to call—just because

There’s no need to jump to exclusivity.
No need to suffocate each other.

But I do want to set the foundation:
What we’re both looking for—now and in the future.

So now I ask myself:
What works for me?
What do I want?

The answer feels so clear:
YOU.

💛 I want to be your first text in the morning and your last at night—because I’m on your mind.
💛 I want to hear about your day—and I want to tell you about mine.
💛 I want to build an emotional connection that roots deep and grows steady.
💛 I want adventure. I want fun.
💛 I want comfort and chaos and everything in between.
💛 I want two separate lives that choose to vibrate in sync.
💛 I want time to date—and time to just be together without expectation.
💛 I want honesty.
💛 I want trust.
💛 I want a safe space where we can show up messy, real, and still be loved.
💛 I want open communication that isn’t exhausting—but effortless.

Marriage?
I don’t know.

Living together?
I don’t know.

Fierce love and loyalty?
Always.

I want out of this early, confusing, fragile stage.
I want into something deeper—something chosen.